DEADPENNY (in the Mortal Coil)

I recently (within the past year) have gotten heavily into music. I started a new office job, and it is mostly menial work. I brought in noise cancelling headphones and first listened to the music I know and love.

But you can’t listen to music you love while doing work you don’t like. So I stopped that.

I tried podcasts! I tried the Stuff You Should Know (would recommend!) I tried crime true (lol) but could not pay attention to any of it

My music tastes have since dramatically evolved. I started listening to Tyler, the Creator because of hearing his new album while in the car with my younger sister (owe her one)

I then listened to people he featured, I got really into Kendrick Lamar, I got heavily into some other bands, will not mention.

I delved into a new world of rap that I didn’t know existed; I explored and explored and found a niche of artists I love – and they work often work together!

There is this artist that is actually two (or three?) other artists together!

AND! The artist (of the 2/3 artists) created an album with another artist I’m starting to love

So it all comes together when I find a new song, and immediately – the first bar hooks me. The vocals – outstanding – they are just, at you, it’s beautiful. His voice, his lyrics, mind.

I’ve listened to [a lot] of hours of music over the last year, and hundreds of artists, and I can think of few that could hold a candle to him.

His tracks alone are phenom, and his features are the feature.

So I knew I had to have some of his merch and see if he was on tour. I know I am saving money, but I need to see him.

So I search for him online, try to find his website maybe to find tour dates – nothing. Can’t find merch. Other artists he’s worked with have websites/a heavier presence.

He has an album out on Apple Music, several singles and several features

I finally find an account on IG that seems to be it. I write a short message [PARAPHRASED] ‘hi, is this really ARTIST?! Sorry to bother, my name is Penny; looking for info on tour/merch, could you please help a girl out? Thank you!”

I send the message! And I don’t hear back

for a while

And he writes back! He lets me know he doesn’t yet have merch yet, and he is not a full-time musician.

Do you believe me when I say I didn’t believe him? Too talented

Well it’s really true. we talked a little more, i gave him an out if he wanted it, but we kept talking

found out we’re the same age

found out we essentially have the same name [male/female version] of the name

and he says ‘this means we have to be friends you know that right?’

So that made me smile! So we messaged back and forth for a bit, like how’s your day, what’s for dinner, how is music, etc

Learned about each other’s backgrounds – could not be more different. Oh and he lives in another continent! 7 hours time difference, kind of rough

He sleeps odd hours but still it’s not the most convenient but still fun

So I think we’re just about past the initial stage and are like officially real friends

which is absolutely crazy because i am just so so so so so so so enthralled with his music – i am telling you – this guy is magic

For my privacy sake and his I don’t want to name him though I would love for everyone to hear him

So I think that’s really cool. I’m listening to his music, his album as I am messaging him. Very cool.

Thank you for reading.

I have to realize that I did not cause my friend’s bad mood to start [i factually mentioned what happened] I cannot cure it, and I cannot control it.

So I will get out of his way, get off his back, and on with my life.

Which now includes talking with a musician that I downright love. Wow.

I’ve never been so entranced with music, and just hooked

And if we each wanted to be more than friends. I’ll happily get into details later but I feel like I lost a friend and that really sucks !!! Because !!! My best friend!!! Died!!!!!!!!!! And it’s not !!! ENJOYABLE TO LOSE PEOPLE!!!!

He’s hot though. Tattoos. My type. Goddamn.

The gentleman, Rob (fake name; keep up) and I are meeting tomorrow. We have plans to meet up, and things will happen.

My good good friend irl knows the situation, and she’ll know the location of where we will be meeting, if by chance I go missing

In order to do IT, YOU HAVE TO DO IT

YOU WANT IT TO BE DONE

AND TBR ONLY WAY IT CAN AND WILL GRT DONE IS IF YOU DO IT

SO YOU HAVE TO DO IT

In oRFRRT TO BE WHO YOI WANT TO BE, YOU HAVE TK DO WHAT THEH DO

You HAVE TO TRAVEL TO A DISTANT CITY TO DATE A HOT IRISH MAN

Okay, Tuesday evening. I am driving to [CITY] for dinner/drinks. With a hot, [NATIONALITY] older successful gentlemen who will treat me to a nice evening! I have to finish this later bc I am just so excited

This man, Rob, will get himself an SB. And I am going to age.

So, instead of working 6/7 shifts of my waitress gig, I can spend one evening with him? With a man? Who will give me MONEY to date him?

And like he will bring me to a casino?

Yeah I’m feeling odd about it. In three days, I could be a slightly richer woman. The next three days are going to pass.

I can do this, and want to! Normally my old anxiety would have killed me

My POT/SD (POT=potential SD), Rob, gambles! That’s how he makes his living. He made $3k today at poker. Wow.

In addition to going on dates with his SBs, he likes to bring them to the casino with him. He’s well known there and wants to build up chemistry and rapport with me before taking me somewhere where he’s well know.

How exciting! He’s giving me advice on how to buy a used car, it’s great! We are chatting every day, and I look forward to it! It makes me happy.

So I can spend an evening at my part-time serving job and make $150, that is then taxed, etc., OR I could go on a date, obtain a THOUSAND doll hairs, and have a good time??? I get to build rapport with him, further cementing the relationship.

He seems to be just as happy too!

Like starting the fire,