This man, Rob, will get himself an SB. And I am going to age.
So, instead of working 6/7 shifts of my waitress gig, I can spend one evening with him? With a man? Who will give me MONEY to date him?
And like he will bring me to a casino?
Yeah I’m feeling odd about it. In three days, I could be a slightly richer woman. The next three days are going to pass.
I can do this, and want to! Normally my old anxiety would have killed me
My POT/SD (POT=potential SD), Rob, gambles! That’s how he makes his living. He made $3k today at poker. Wow.
In addition to going on dates with his SBs, he likes to bring them to the casino with him. He’s well known there and wants to build up chemistry and rapport with me before taking me somewhere where he’s well know.
How exciting! He’s giving me advice on how to buy a used car, it’s great! We are chatting every day, and I look forward to it! It makes me happy.
So I can spend an evening at my part-time serving job and make $150, that is then taxed, etc., OR I could go on a date, obtain a THOUSAND doll hairs, and have a good time??? I get to build rapport with him, further cementing the relationship.
He seems to be just as happy too!
Rob (SD, fake name) and I have a date on Thursday!
He’s had plenty of arrangements before me, he’s showed me pictures, screenshots. He’s going to take me to places I’ve never been or knew existed.
This is going to be a lot of fun.
Apparently Gandhi said this, but Gandhi was a piece of shit, so I hear.
When I was younger, the concept of “Sugar baby” enticed me – younger, attractive women will “date” older, more financially stable men. Some of these SB relationships work on an allowance – women are given 1k/date, for example.
Okay kids buckle up. I met an SD (sometimes people call certain men “splenda” – they’re just nothing like the real thing.
So my potential sugar daddy (POT) has offered, in the initial steps, 1k per date/meeting. If after a few weeks, we are still going strong, it would go up to 2k.
He loves to gamble, that’s something we can do together! We are planning on meeting this upcoming week for dinner. He showed me a couple pictures of his previous SB, and he took her to places! Like!
I truly think this is the life I was supposed to live. I’m young, slim, smart, I’m attractive. I’m mature, well-spoken. And this 9-5 job is killing me. Being with him, and at least a minimum of 4k a month, I could easily waitress part time. Within maybe two or three weeks, I will have an additional 6k that I can use towards a car.
Okay pausing now, will return.
#sugar #SB #sugar baby
Like starting the fire,
How quaint lol. oh okay so I was dumped recently, I think that’s been established. Fact.
Well, that… that sucked. So much. BUT in the process of dating him, the following things happened BECAUSE of that:
(TBC)))))
dating him,
If you were to ask me who the laziest person I know, I would say it is myself.It is almost sinful. And I realize that overall, I cannot believe I am half of the man dad s – who is literally the hardest working person *I* know.
I am so privleged to even WRITE this. In my life – I had my car insurance chosen and provided/paid for; had my EZ pass paid for by, I was told to buy a Honda or Toyota; I was told it has to be beige. I came home because I had to, only moved out with PRUSSIA out of half desperation. just. And then PRSA2LOL help made me a lot A LOT of desions .cs .
He helped me buy a new phone, he literally researched them for me; helped me buy a VERY nice laptop, wow. It’s everything I’ve ever needed. Just like the fresh ground coffee beans from Nicaragua!
LOL like the wife in the truman show advertising for coffee, that was pretty funny.
Off track – I was recently diagnosed with OCD which, thank god bc the anxiety and worry I had was not normal. Not the normal amoint
Right now, I’m outside on my parent’s patio, sitting by a bonfire I made with my sister. I use the word ‘with’ liberaly because she was just sitting with me on the patio, but at the other side of the table.
I PROMISE you – the below photo is the first and last AI image I will ever create.
that is NOT my patio situation lol
Maybe I’ll post a pic laterrrr skater
When I don’t have my laptop open, I have a very wise and conscious train of thought. And as soon as I open it, I feel the obligation
Hey for true crime’s sake, if I don’t make a new post by, let’s say, Tuesday, I will have been murdered
i DON’T KNOW why I do that though? Why do I thnik about a scenarion that is very unlikely, (but still possible?) idk
brb I’m texting that hot guy and wI’ll codename him.. (or will I ??? psychooogical trick?) obviously. IVY
When I was on my l… fungal trip last weekend, (oh BOy)
I am nowhere near where I started to be at, but of course that’s okay. Because (this i S A JOKE I DID NOT WRITE, BEAR ME REPEATING (?) the Jelly bean guy in
Rick and Morty
“isn’t that what adventures do? Referencing getting on the rails quite a bit.
Oh, OH, so SO during the ‘upwards’ of my vacation with the fun guys, I reached out to IVY & PHL, offering to deliver cookies to them, because I wanted them for myself, but they didn’t deliver to where I was.
The crickets are always so loud. It’s too rude to rub your stupid little violin-esque LEGS ALL THE TIME you’re disturbing the spacetime continuum.
I need to change. Things are not doing anything. I want to: work somewhere by the beach (#islnd)
I want to live by the ocean and take it easy. I want to work hard at a busy resturant during the on season, and part time, or something else chill. I save money, I rent a room, somehoe? I’ll have to actually sit down.
One second. I’ll be back. ESPECIALLY (and I guess hopefully? weirdly? I’ll lucily hopefully be back before tuesday lol.
This sounds very privileged to type it but I have coasted into adulthood; I hae had major decisions made for me ofver the course of my entire life. I’m turning 31 in a few weeks, (I have to tell you what we’re planning! Unless I have already done so. Pause one sec, time to eat some yogurt
(TO BE CONTINUED)
I had a wonderful time by myself at the house. I smoked some mj and I ended up taking some magic mushroom. It was a fantastic time. But, not ideal.
The mushroom was in an edible brownie, and there were like 15 small little doses/blocks. 1-2 is considered a microdose; 3-5 is considered “Therapeutic,” and 6-8 is Astral Project.
I had previously done these mushrooms before; 1.5 on a weekend trip with family,
we played this really fun game called Telestrations, and it’s kind of like “whisper down the lane” but with drawings. So you pick a card, and on a small, whiteboard notebook, you draw the word on your car. No words, no numbers. Then you close the book and pass it to the person next to you.
They open it, try and guess what your drawing it, then write their guess on another page. Then they pass it again. And that person then draws the word, rinse and repeat.
I then later did 2 bars with my friend M. We had rented a cheap, nice hotel room and took the mushrooms, we had munchy kind food but we couldn’t fully relax immediately, we went in and out of the room. Not the best experience.
This past weekend, I was there from Thurs. PM to Monday PM. On Saturday mid-afternoon, I take 3 doses. I get some things ready, but what I experienced was not at all what I thought was going to happen. I knew I needed a bigger dose.
On Sunday, I had to wait until my uncle left who was working on something in the house until 7:30 UGH
Took it, was up until at least 12:30, but I had at least one epiphany. I see everything differently now, and it’s scary.
I have vehemently not wanted kids since high school, I’m in my early thirties btw. And over the weekend, in my experience, there is a part of me that doesn’t want to have a kid but more like raise a kid,
In my terms, we are all blocks of marble, rising endlessly, and life is what you carve of it. Some blocks haven’t been touched, some have been nicely decorated, and others are ragged and rough.
All marbles will grow. All with eventually crumble. But I literally have the power to help another marble grow up. I literally have the power to make a younger marble’s life better. I can give that person a good life, and I can support them. But it’s obviously so much more than that.
Anyhow, it was a great experience. But my birthday is soon coming up, and I have plans to go to the coast again with my friend and my sister, and I am so excited to take some shrooms again.
At one point, I sat outside on the driveway, facing east, and feeling the wind come over my skin, over my clothes, around my jaw. The strong wind passing over me were literally in France at some point; the molecules in the wind have been everything else on earth.
It was truly a sensational experience. This wind traveled thousands of miles to me. Absoultely unreal.”
Okay this and else to be updated later xo
I’m having a heck of a weekend. I have booked my grandmother’s shore house right on the ocean, and it’s beautiful.
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This is a weekend for getaway, for a private retreat, the first HOLD ON
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